Tuesday, March 2, 2010

I am not superman

I have finite capacity. Mental. Physical. Emotional.

  • I can not upgrade a wastewater treatment plant
    -theoretically, for my design class
    -calculating hydraulics, biological loads, flowrate
  • I can not lead a competition team that does not work together
    -that does not commit to accomplish our goals
  • I can not design a water treatment system, and build it
    -write detailed analysis of the treatment principles used
    -while managing budgets, renting cars, registering people
  • I can not lead a worship team that does not put in effort
    -not striving to learn
    -to take initiative
    -to look beyond themselves to serve the community
    -to explore worship beyond music, and be willing to share
  • I can not solve racial tension
    -be a scape goat for thousands
    -solve the problems that apply to you
    -watch you sit idly as I tackle the problem of the centuries
    -that actually apply more to you than me
  • I can not write poetry on what it means to be me
    -analyze poets that openly attack who I am
  • I can not be a son, brother, friend, boyfriend
    -and have time to be myself too
  • I can not motivate this senior IV class to action
    -to remind them to plan prayer meetings
    -to organize and plan game nights
    -taking out other classes
    -being good examples
    -to stop being apathetic
    -give up their comfort for the sake of others
    -take ownership of this fellowship and these people who look up to them
  • I can not be a good example for the younger IV students
    -trying to lead by example
    -meeting up to talk, eat lunch
    -checking in with them, being a friend and a support
I am not superman

I can not carry the weight of the world
I can not do everything I want to do
I can not do everything you want me to do
I can not solve all your problems
I definitely can not solve all my problems.

But

I can do my best
I can strive to be the best friend, support, man that I can be

and I can trust. In something greater than me.
Because only He can give me strength to make it through.

and I pray.
and pray
and pray

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